Passion and Pursuit

1 Samuel 30 :1-8 David and his men reached Ziklag on the third day. Now the Amalekites had raided the Negev and Ziklag. They had attacked Ziklag and burned it, and had taken captive the women and everyone else in it, both young and old. They killed none of them, but carried them off as they went on their way. When David and his men reached Ziklag, they found it destroyed by fire and their wives and sons and daughters taken captive. So David and his men wept aloud until they had no strength left to weep. David’s two wives had been captured—Ahinoam of Jezreel and Abigail, the widow of Nabal of Carmel. David was greatly distressed because the men were talking of stoning him; each one was bitter in spirit because of his sons and daughters. But David found strength in the LORD his God. Then David said to Abiathar the priest, the son of Ahimelek, “Bring me the Ephod.” Abiathar brought it to him, and David inquired of the LORD, “Shall I pursue this raiding party? Will I overtake them?” “Pursu...

Recently, I read a  short story called “When God Whispers”, which moved me to the point of tears. It was beautifully written and the message was not a whisper to me, it was more like a shout.  Events and ongoing occurrences in my life have led me to wonder whether God is shouting at me but I am not listening.  I know He is shouting but am I getting the right message or is it distorted because of all the distractions. As I write , it gets clearer. Ah I understand… he is removing those distractions so I can hear him clearer. Being keen and discerning is not easy but it is essential to hearing God’s voice clearly. Initially it may not even look or sound like God  and we may become tempted to just ignore his bidding. This is how I felt for sure, I did not want to hear… that message. God in his omnipotence, knows what is best for us, it may not feel good, we may not understand what he is doing, but he knows the heart of us all and will do what is necessary to keep us from...

After a very challenging day , I decided to make us a healthy smoothie, I put in yogurt, frozen fruits and coconut milk and some whole milk... not sure why I put in the milk but I did, after blending I gave some to my seven year old son Seth,  after tasting he made a face and handed the glass to me. I let out a hearty laugh knowing he did not like smoothies anyway so I proceeded to taste it myself, it tasted terrible.  The coconut milk was starting to go bad, so I threw that bit away and made a whole new batch with frozen fruits , yogurt ,milk, and ... sugar. Blended it quickly and tried to get Seth to drink some .. trying my best I said, this time I put in some sugar, his response was " Sugar doesn't make everything better" I smiled inside. I thought it was something he had heard somewhere so I asked " Did your teacher say that? He said no he had just got it from his mind.  He was so right whilst the sugar may have enhanced the taste of the smoothie it...

Choose to be happy, despite what you face At the end of the day, God will recompense He said vengeance is mine, It may take a while, but evil doers will pay Their fate is sealed They will reap what they sow It may take a while but every dog has his day Choose to smile , when they want you to frown Live life to the fullest While they lurk in the background Haters will hate That’s what they do best You cannot succumb To their scheming mess Laugh long, laugh hard It is not right but it is okay Remember Haman He who digs a pit  Shall himself fall in it Trust and obey That’s all you need to do Make sure your heart is right And keep praying through Joy comes in the morning This too shall pass Today is a new day Do not focus on the past There’s still a glimmer of hope ahead Let it reflect in your smile Make your days count And worth the while Life is too precious , to waste on stress Remain positive and you will pass the test Make memories and moments last Forever in your heart Hold on to...

 Last night as I worshiped,  God stepped in the room.  His presence was so strong that I began to weep, it was as if He had come in and put His arms around me and said , "Let it go, right here on my shoulder" As I cried, every negative feeling that I felt over the past few weeks subsided. Feelings so negative I prefer not to express what they were.  It was a trying and emotional roller coaster sort of experience.  Some days I was rationale other days very irrational. It was a situation that I had brought on myself but, I still felt wronged. I would often hear His still small voice. "It could be worse" " You can't blame anyone for this"  "You did this." When God speaks it is good to simply listen and quickly obey Him.  Oh had I just listened to Him. One year ago I had gone through a very unsettling experience and I remember God saying to me, " "Do not react, do not say a word" "This is exactly what t...

It's 12:31 AM and I can't sleep, my six year old is wide awake, he is speaking and doing things to make me laugh.  Just when I was having a low moment he sat on the bed with his arms in a meditation yoga pose, I couldn't help but crack up.   I welcome his jokes. Why can't I go to sleep?  I am feeling the heavy weight of guilt. I just need to be released from this guilt that I feel right now.  So I proceed to writing as it always help me to channel my feelings into a blog post and I log into Sound Cloud and I look up some songs, and as usual there's a relevant song to minister  to your needs.  Here's what God ministered to me through these singers.   James Fortune and Fiya and Fred Hammond So I am grateful and will continue to hold on. When you are at you highest He is there, when you are at your lowest he is also there.  God's love is unconditional, never failing and even when you have made a complete mess of things He is always ...

Righteous Indignation is how I feel  When It seems as if the wicked are prospering When it looks as if they win But its not so, for real God uses everything The devil Is God's devil He can only hurt you when God Wills He, God probably said, " Have you considered my servant Ketura" The enemy probably replied, Yeah, she has been through a lot  Yet she is still a part of your flock  I have attacked her marriage so many times  attacked her son's health , her mom  and sister too What else I have been thinking can I do Oh! Her name!  Let's spoil her reputation Put her to shame Let's set this up good so she can't fight Use men of authority, make her seem weak God shook his head and said "OR SO YOU THINK!" THIS ONE IS A FIGHTER, I KNOW! I CREATED HER! GO AHEAD  TOUCH HER SHE WILL FALL, SHE WILL CRY, SHE WILL BLEED SHE WILL SAY SOME THINGS  I WISH SHE WOULDN...

I came across this poem I wrote in 2008,  today enjoy: Why? Aren’t you in Love with Him? It is a natural thing When you’re in love To praise someone It is a natural  When you’re in love to please To please someone It’s a natural thing When you’re in love To be excited about  someone So why aren’t we Christians Excited, enthused, happy Why are we hesitant To praise God. Why do we find it so hard to please Him? Why? Aren’t we in love? Our faces   Say a lot It’s either you’re hot, In love with God Or you’re not God does not like lukewarm No in between Why, tell me why Aren’t you in love with Him? Selah 

After months well almost over a year , I finally used the voice again. But this time it was different ... I wanted to be used by God. I am in love with God, I desire Him like never before and there is nothing more important than being in His presence. It took me a while to realize that I cannot live without His presence. Literally! I have got  to have Him, must stay in Him or else... I become a total mess. He is my joy... there is nothing and no one I want more , and I have learnt that I can do nothing without my Lord.  He is my reward, he is my "Ishi" ... Lover of my Soul. So what got me to this place... a series of misfortunate events but God !!! He is great and awesome amazing!!! He never gives up on us.  When you think you're at your worst , he still loves you. I want you to know that no matter what you've done or where you've been He still loves and cares for you and is totally in love with you. ...

There is nothing God wants more than for us to spend quality time with Him. Where we become intimate with Him. Holding back nothing, exposing everything.   When He does not get that from us He tends to pursue us. Woo us back to Him.  Like I always say "by any means necessary".  His methods are not always what you would expect, but the results are astounding.  He will drive you to your knees with some unconventional things. He is the greatest lover, the ultimate Casanova, and he is a relentless pursuer.  He is amazing ! We are indeed His bride ! I love this song by Jaye Thomas.  He, Jaye intrigued me because his sound was different, and anointed, not just anointed but the depth of relationship and experience is his voice.  If you care to listen here is the link below: Jaye Thomas - In Pursuit of You Such a beautiful song. I love how he begins the song , slow and he almost sounds sleepy, but then it...

This is the music that I have found lately , and just like perfumes reminds us of seasons and times in our lives, I've found that there is relevant music for every season of life. Enjoy!! United Pursuit - Nothing Without You

We know that God causes all things to work together for good to them that love God, to them who are called according to his purpose. Romans 8: 28 You may have gone through some very challenging things that shattered your faith and you may be still be going through those things right now. Some experiences may have made sense whilst others made no sense at all.    I have been through some things in my years on earth, that sometimes left me wandering why.    I have lost great opportunities and made some huge mistakes. I have had friends and lost them because I did not nurture the relationship. There was a time I went from boyfriend to boyfriend searching for something I will never find in a man. There were times when my actions, made me wander whether I had completely lost my mind. I have said things that I should not have and acted like a complete fool.  Through it all I was often tempted to live ...

As we approach the festive season and we begin to celebrate the birth of Christ let us all remember those who are in need. Those in need who may not necessarily show you that they are in need and those who are openly in need.  I am inspired to write this post because I just now felt the need to check on a fellow blogger who I follow, and was shocked to learn that she had been through a divorce.  Her family seemed so perfect and they looked so happy.  I was shocked and still feel the hurt in my stomach for her.  I admire what she had. I immediately went into prayer for her because I know what it is to lose a loved one and not have them around for the holidays. I prayed for strength, for the courage to face the stares of people, the judgment of people, sanity and for peace of mind. The holidays are extremely difficult when you are alone although I am sure she will be with friends and family, but to not have her husband there can be so hard. Let...

Isaiah 61 : 3 To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning and the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness. He tried it! Yes he did but he is a lieing wander and a loser whose fate has already been determined. Some of you know who I am talking about. So I am away from most of my family most of the time, as a result I miss them.  Being away from your family most of the time can be emotionally taxing and the enemy sometimes just reminds you of every negative thing.  But he tried it!  Whenever the enemy tries to bombard me with depression , I sing, sing loud and I sing hard. I do not just sing any song though, I sing songs that are filled with the word of God, inspirational songs. Music is a powerful thing, it is the only thing that can penetrate your spirit and soul your atmosphere without permission. Have you ever heard someone sing a song and a few ...

"And then you woke up"  Have you ever had this sarcastic remark spoken to you, right after you told a friend or a loved one of some crazy warped idea that you have, which they couldn't fathom or get. To bring you sharply to reality they usually say, " And then you woke up".  Recently something happened to me that caused me to do just that, not physically but spiritually.  It was something I had promised myself I would never do but I did it quite innocently forgetting my past statement. When my father died it was sudden I saw him on the Thursday and he was gone on the Saturday. It was a shock. I didn't want to accept it. There was a funeral , there were pictures taken it was recorded on video , and I vowed never to watch any of those.  Recently though on holiday or vacationing overseas with my family I found myself doing just that quite by accident. Seeing my dad's dead body did not affect me at first, then I saw it again and again, and then I saw him...

Recently I contemplated changing the name of this blog, but I felt a strong conviction that it needs to remain as is. Why because too many of us believe that we should pursue happiness or excellence or a man or a woman, but not many people are desiring to go after God.  I am not perfect I am absolutely flawed but the reality is I am in pursuit of holiness, my ultimate desire is to be more like God, to walk as Jesus did.  Nothing else matters really as the outward beauty we have will fade away, the land, the car the things we hold dear will not last.  What will last is your spirit, the real you, that lives in the shell we call a body.  It never dies.  Your spirit is the eternal part of you.  So why not pursue God ? You have everything to gain, Roman 6: 23 says "For the wages of sin is death but the gift of God is eternal life"  You get to live forever.  Well... where you do so is what is important.  Today you can choose . I...

We all have goals. Our goals become prayers, things we ask God to develop in us so we can achieve those goals.  I have learned the hard way to tread carefully, because His methods in helping you develop those in ward qualities are not always easy. So you want to learn to be patient, and so you pray God help me, I am so impatient at times, I promise that I will be more patient next time around but you need to help me with that. Well... you're about to wait for somethings, he is going to test you.  Make sure you have spiritual understanding and good discerning because some tests are about to hit you right where it hurts and you will need to be ready.   I believe the key is to recognizing it when it comes and being prepared for it, just like the natural.   In the natural we study for an exam and familiarize ourselves with the concepts so that when we sit in the exam room, we first recognize the questions presented and we are able to respond...

To be fulfilled, one must find their purpose.  I believe your true purpose cannot be found without God. God places a desire in you to do something, to solve a problem in this world and as long as you have tapped into that you will know and find your purpose. Finding your purpose does not mean you won't be challenged beyond reason sometimes. The challenges come to make us grow.  Each challenge is a test and once you have passed that test you will grow and move to another level in your purpose.  I have found that sometimes we are often challenged with the same situations because we have not passed the test or learnt the lesson that we are supposed to learn. Recently I was challenged beyond reason. It just made no sense, but it was something which had happened before.  I saw myself reacting the same way and making the same choices.  It was Deja Vu. I wanted to step out of myself and press pause but I couldn't because my reactions had become habits. I...

Today I felt the writer in me come forward, she was asking to be heard, and she was flowing. The thoughts were coming and I was, as they say feeling myself again. I  remember writing short stories as a 14 year old and after writing them I would give them to my friends to read.  At the time all I consumed or read I should say were romance novels, and what goes in is what comes out.  I began to write my own romance stories. Yes girls!!! Then I gave my heart to the Lord, and one day I made the mistake of going to church with one of my romance novels... lol... don't know what I was thinking. I can remember it now, it was predominantly pink and the hero was muscular with long flowing blond hair and of course, he had no shirt on. So, the pastors wife came up to me looked at the book and shook her head. She didn't say,  "Kate are you reading this? You shouldn't. " She just shook her head. So I knew, right away, that I...

There are so many schools of thought in today's world.  So many philosophies, trends and opinions of men I have come to realize that life is to be lived in the present. Enjoy your life right now, in whatever stage or chapter that you're in now.  Enjoy your 20, 30, 36 or 66 ! Enjoy you toddler who speaks continuously unless he or she is on a tablet. Dance till you're giddy to a positive and uplifting song, Enjoy your enemies, yes, they push you to be better Enjoy the gift of loneliness, because you will not always be lonely Enjoy the beauty that is around you, and believe me there is beauty in everything, as long as you can see it. Enjoy your singleness... yes girl, yes guy... because when and if you marry, you may wish your were single again... let me tell you... Don't be so hasty to the next stage in life, enjoy the gift of the present because there will only be one day like today.