Passion and Pursuit

 Last night as I worshiped,  God stepped in the room.  His presence was so strong that I began to weep, it was as if He had come in and put His arms around me and said , "Let it go, right here on my shoulder" As I cried, every negative feeling that I felt over the past few weeks subsided. Feelings so negative I prefer not to express what they were.  It was a trying and emotional roller coaster sort of experience.  Some days I was rationale other days very irrational. It was a situation that I had brought on myself but, I still felt wronged. I would often hear His still small voice. "It could be worse" " You can't blame anyone for this"  "You did this." When God speaks it is good to simply listen and quickly obey Him.  Oh had I just listened to Him. One year ago I had gone through a very unsettling experience and I remember God saying to me, " "Do not react, do not say a word" "This is exactly what t...

It's 12:31 AM and I can't sleep, my six year old is wide awake, he is speaking and doing things to make me laugh.  Just when I was having a low moment he sat on the bed with his arms in a meditation yoga pose, I couldn't help but crack up.   I welcome his jokes. Why can't I go to sleep?  I am feeling the heavy weight of guilt. I just need to be released from this guilt that I feel right now.  So I proceed to writing as it always help me to channel my feelings into a blog post and I log into Sound Cloud and I look up some songs, and as usual there's a relevant song to minister  to your needs.  Here's what God ministered to me through these singers.   James Fortune and Fiya and Fred Hammond So I am grateful and will continue to hold on. When you are at you highest He is there, when you are at your lowest he is also there.  God's love is unconditional, never failing and even when you have made a complete mess of things He is always ...

Righteous Indignation is how I feel  When It seems as if the wicked are prospering When it looks as if they win But its not so, for real God uses everything The devil Is God's devil He can only hurt you when God Wills He, God probably said, " Have you considered my servant Ketura" The enemy probably replied, Yeah, she has been through a lot  Yet she is still a part of your flock  I have attacked her marriage so many times  attacked her son's health , her mom  and sister too What else I have been thinking can I do Oh! Her name!  Let's spoil her reputation Put her to shame Let's set this up good so she can't fight Use men of authority, make her seem weak God shook his head and said "OR SO YOU THINK!" THIS ONE IS A FIGHTER, I KNOW! I CREATED HER! GO AHEAD  TOUCH HER SHE WILL FALL, SHE WILL CRY, SHE WILL BLEED SHE WILL SAY SOME THINGS  I WISH SHE WOULDN...

I came across this poem I wrote in 2008,  today enjoy: Why? Aren’t you in Love with Him? It is a natural thing When you’re in love To praise someone It is a natural  When you’re in love to please To please someone It’s a natural thing When you’re in love To be excited about  someone So why aren’t we Christians Excited, enthused, happy Why are we hesitant To praise God. Why do we find it so hard to please Him? Why? Aren’t we in love? Our faces   Say a lot It’s either you’re hot, In love with God Or you’re not God does not like lukewarm No in between Why, tell me why Aren’t you in love with Him? Selah 

After months well almost over a year , I finally used the voice again. But this time it was different ... I wanted to be used by God. I am in love with God, I desire Him like never before and there is nothing more important than being in His presence. It took me a while to realize that I cannot live without His presence. Literally! I have got  to have Him, must stay in Him or else... I become a total mess. He is my joy... there is nothing and no one I want more , and I have learnt that I can do nothing without my Lord.  He is my reward, he is my "Ishi" ... Lover of my Soul. So what got me to this place... a series of misfortunate events but God !!! He is great and awesome amazing!!! He never gives up on us.  When you think you're at your worst , he still loves you. I want you to know that no matter what you've done or where you've been He still loves and cares for you and is totally in love with you. ...

There is nothing God wants more than for us to spend quality time with Him. Where we become intimate with Him. Holding back nothing, exposing everything.   When He does not get that from us He tends to pursue us. Woo us back to Him.  Like I always say "by any means necessary".  His methods are not always what you would expect, but the results are astounding.  He will drive you to your knees with some unconventional things. He is the greatest lover, the ultimate Casanova, and he is a relentless pursuer.  He is amazing ! We are indeed His bride ! I love this song by Jaye Thomas.  He, Jaye intrigued me because his sound was different, and anointed, not just anointed but the depth of relationship and experience is his voice.  If you care to listen here is the link below: Jaye Thomas - In Pursuit of You Such a beautiful song. I love how he begins the song , slow and he almost sounds sleepy, but then it...

This is the music that I have found lately , and just like perfumes reminds us of seasons and times in our lives, I've found that there is relevant music for every season of life. Enjoy!! United Pursuit - Nothing Without You

We know that God causes all things to work together for good to them that love God, to them who are called according to his purpose. Romans 8: 28 You may have gone through some very challenging things that shattered your faith and you may be still be going through those things right now. Some experiences may have made sense whilst others made no sense at all.    I have been through some things in my years on earth, that sometimes left me wandering why.    I have lost great opportunities and made some huge mistakes. I have had friends and lost them because I did not nurture the relationship. There was a time I went from boyfriend to boyfriend searching for something I will never find in a man. There were times when my actions, made me wander whether I had completely lost my mind. I have said things that I should not have and acted like a complete fool.  Through it all I was often tempted to live ...